Sunday, December 15, 2013

on an unlikely december day

okay it's about ten at night my way---which is kinda unusual for me to write now and sometimes if the feeling hits me to write at night, it can prove to be not such a good idea

but tomorrow will probably be a day i don't find the time to write----so---i will try to expel what is in my brain and on my heart----it is going to be hard and maybe kinda vague so hang in there if you will and listen with one hand over your eyes, you know when you just can't watch it all----it's just that i hardly ever go here or there and as i write this lengthy intro----i realize, i will likely end up in prose----as an attempt to hide once again from the hard parts of life-----

unable to see, she stared straight through----through to the uneven levels of purpose her mind had taken
she understood little but felt each touch immensely and not only that, she counted them

she wanted nothing more nor nothing less---in fact she didn't even know what it was to want or to linger in one's subconscious or so it was that people liked to think this of her---

the world around her tossed and turned and beckoned everyone to come to the party to get all you could out of this momentary journey---still she watched and she watched until she could only close her eyes in wonder


this is dedicated to one of my angels

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  1. I've missed you, Lynn. I hope you have more days when you feel like writing.

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    1. thank you susan i have missed you too---yeah i have been pretty dry lately and still unable to write, throwing care to the wind---it's been like an unspoken, unwilling rebellion against social media and for no good reason---but sometimes i find the reason later--:)

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  2. Go with your gut feeling, Lynn. This is your blog. Write what you want to write.

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    1. occasionally i attempt the gut thing d.g.--thank you for your writers encouragement---i know you are right :)

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  3. I really LOVE this and now it has me wondering of the meaning behind it...

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  4. thank you so much-- i'm glad you liked it-- it's about my daugther-- who was severely handicapped-- she past away 12 years ago today <3

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  5. This is beautiful, Lynn. I'm so happy to see you back.

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    1. awww thank you dana---i hope to be inspired more often--hope you are feeling well!!

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  6. I did not know who it was about; I felt the soul in the center watching the world about her.

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    1. oh joanne--what a wonderful way to put it--you captured the essence of what i was trying to say <3

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  7. I think snatching time to write anytime is a great idea. If it doesn't come out the way you want it, you're the writer and you can change it!

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    1. yeah so true--i must admit, this did not come out the way i wanted but honestly i rarely change anything ;)

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  8. wonderful words Lynn, the older I get the more I seem also to reflect on anniversaries. there's been an Abba night on the TV over here and when the group were coming to their end and their divorces, their songs reflected their feelings. Björn Ulvaeus at the end of one of the documentaries believed the Swedish people have a sadness built into their psyche, he said it's good to be sad. i don't think that's exclusively the Swedes. i can get quite emotional just remembering, have a nice evening

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    1. that's pretty cool actually---i think they have it right---i know i have seen the most beauty when experiencing the most pain---i hope you had or are still having a good trip to the u.s. :)

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  9. My sister and I were just talking about how important the time when you're only half-awake is. It can be a time of really letting out some good stuff. And you did!

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    1. well i can't say i was near sleep--but i know what you mean joy--sometimes, i will wake up and think--wow i have got to write that--trouble is i don't get up and jot it down, so by morning, it's usually gone---thanks joy :)

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  10. i realize, i will likely end up in prose----as an attempt to hide once again from the hard parts of life-----

    You have no idea how often I do this... formulate a story to concretely tell my story without offending and hurting feelings... I'm sorry you're having a tough time. (((HUGS)))

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    1. awww thanks juli--i am okay---just sometimes things hit me harder than others and occasionally i share them---hugging back!!

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  11. Hauntingly beautiful Lynn! It's great to write when you can snag a few moments. Even when it doesn't come out the way you meant, at least you were able to get the words off your chest and out into the world. Kind of light a small weight being lifted.

    I hope you had a lovely Christmas!

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  12. thank you so much theresa--sorry i am so late in my response---happy new year!

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