Wednesday, January 7, 2015

for James

a little over a week ago I was planning to blog after not doing so for several weeks---

I was thinking how I would do something I don't usually do---make a list of new year's resolutions---

then a week ago yesterday robyn delivered her first born son-----he had died in utero---at 29 weeks---

as many of you know-I am not a stranger to death or despair----and you may recall I am a Christian--

this has thrown me into a dark dark place----that I can't even imagine emerging from---but I try because of robyn and my other children----


softly you came and went--taking the vital part of our being-----the promise of joy never wanting to feel----only echoed life's laughing emptiness--
all the plans  and images of a time in the distant future---stolen and trashed like a punished crime---no one had reported

I stood at the side and witnessed-although I couldn't tell you what I saw---or could speak any truth---for it is unwanted---unacceptable to let one's self drown for too long----the crowds on the shore would not stand for that---they would surely need the lifeline for the next big thing-----


so let me take it in---your face--your pitiful perfect body----know I would take your place---know I will never forget you

18 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your loss.

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  2. I am so sorry to hear of your loss, my sincere condolences to you all.

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  3. Dear Lynn,

    I gasped, and held my breath as I read this piece. My heart aches for you, for your daughter, and for the little unborn soul.
    I hold you all tightly in my prayers.

    Sincerely, Jenny

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  4. Deepest sympathy for you, Robyn and the little one that wasn't allowed a chance at life. Thoughts and prayers.

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  5. Words fail me. I am so sorry for the loss you all have experienced.

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  6. I am so sorry; how heavy your hearts! Thank you for telling us, and not hiding far away in grief. Love, Joanne

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  7. Oh, Lynn, I'm so sorry. Love your tribute to him. So beautiful.

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  8. I'm so sorry for your family's loss. My have my deepest sympathy.

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  9. I fully understand Lynn, our third child was stillborn. We were then blessed with twins.

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  10. Thank you/ wow that was a blessing!

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