Today I had to do something for the first time without Frank again
There have been many and will continue- this one I have been dreading
Since my first daughter Ashley was born with special needs - we have seen the same pediatric neurologist
Miller sees him too -
On these visits for Miller- Frank would take the day off to assist— usually Miller would have several doctors appointments in the same day
Most times- Frank and I would merely wait in a couple of comfy chairs just a floor away from his drs
Frank would walk down to the hospital Starbucks and get us coffee or sometimes I would get hot tea
Always we would venture in the gift shop- perhaps picking up a birthday gift for my aunt or unusual Christmas gift for someone and we would try to find a little toy for Miller
The majority of the time was spent just chatting about our kids and grandkids- or Frank trying to read to me out of one of the half dozen of books he would bring along
I don’t particularly care to be read to and he knew it but was ever ready to share the thoughtful things he had noticed and excitedly repeated
As I planned out today in my heart and head- I knew it would be emotional and sad for me and Robyn
I have never been to see this dr without Frank by my side- he had been without me at times
I occasionally spoke with this dr in a hospital setting when Frank was not there
So I did it- it was just as hard as I thought it would be but uneventful
I didn’t cry until I came home
