houses and churches and babies

hey-hope all r doing well--sorry sometimes my fb writing comes through--well remember i was telling y'all last time about getting bitten by the old house bug--we went riding around some yesterday and saw this really neat house--looks like it needs some work,but so so cool -- agent never has called us back though--probably wouldn't do it but would have liked to gone in to see it--maybe they will call back and we can see it next week-- robyn just loved it-- she is so funny about how she likes all the old stuff even more than i do--

church thing isn't going so well we just don't feel like we have found any place that we are suppose to be--just between you and me i have been at the point , that if some of my friends from my old church had tried to get me to come back - i just might have done it--frank and robyn say no ,no that, that is not the answer--we even started saying again how maybe we could start a church ourselves--yesterday morning it sounded good --like God might be telling us to--but today the thought of it makes me sick -you know what i mean or do you--i have never thought of myself as a pastor's wife and really don't want to be--but i know God has given us talents, i feel we are wasting --i still wonder what is church suppose to be anyway-- i mean the new testament church was a group of fellow believers that pooled all their stuff together and worshiped God --as i understand it , it was not for unbelievers like today--you evangelized outside of the church--not that i have any problem with unbelievers attending church-- it just seems like sometimes we are all just there creating programs and entertaining one another- i sure don't claim to have the answers but something about the organized church of today just doesn't seem right to me--

yesterday morning we listened to a young minister on tv saying that if you didn't want to go to church- if it was a burden to you, then you may not be saved-- it kinda of scared me for a minute, cause i have to admit - i don't want to go , most of the time--then again the Bible says that true religion is to visit those in prison and to take care of the widows and orphans--i have struggled with this for so many years--

when we had our handicapped children--we (for more than one reason) stopped going to church regularly--but every weekend we would go with all the kids and volunteer at an institution--a place we still visit--most of those people have NO visitors at all--so many timed i have and continue to believe-- if you don't have much time then you better make the most of the time you have--Jesus said He came to serve and to not be served-

then on the other side of that i do believe that Christians need one another for support, and would love to find that and give it -

sorry to go on and on -- next subject- we will find out what kind of grand baby we are having wednesday--so i will let ya know----