Tuesday, July 16, 2013

sharing

good tuesday morning my friends---i wasn't gonna write this morning but i am suddenly feeling pretty emotional, so i thought, hey, maybe i should write after-all

it is the kind of emotional that is not particularly unpleasant, maybe melancholy would be a better word--

i have written in the past about my tendency to rush things and how i am ready for the summer to be over, as soon as the 4th of july has ended

yesterday a friend of mine, posted on her facebook how she was ready for fall and all of it's glory and beauty---i liked it---but found myself surprised that i wasn't feeling that way, this summer--

now i know i have told everyone, who asked, how i am more than ready for robyn's wedding to be over and in lots of ways i am----but as i knew i would, i am starting to get the fact that when it's over, it's over----

there will be no more days of pouring over bridal magazines and searching every site on google that has anything to do with weddings---

robyn will probably stop pinning wedding ideas to her pinterest---and i will look around the house and wonder where has all the bags of wedding materials disappeared to- and how is it, i am no longer finding pieces of ribbon and endless wedding lists all over the dining room table--

such as life---we celebrate and we go on---and hopefully we celebrate again----

if i stop too long to ponder this momentous time in my daughter's life, i will be like her daddy----who wouldn't care if i write about, his many teary moments at the thought of his "little winkie" getting married-

he worries how he won't be able go in to kiss her goodbye each morning before work------

i just take a deep breath and say to myself--this is what you prayed for and it is----i firmly believe this is meant to be---

i know a big part of my sudden flush of emotions is due to the many sad things going on at this time---many heartaches and pain for others in my life-----

but there is a deep part of me, that senses something going on lately that is so beautifully orchestrated that only the angels could hear it----it seems to be saying---this is all for a purpose, take notice, see how everything is connected----and i do sometimes look back at each encounter and go awwww that's what that was about-----

and those fireflies seem to increase everyday--so much so that i think of them quite often---like a couple of Sundays ago---my mind wandered a bit about all those fireflies and how i just might write a book about the summer without the fireflies----cause maybe they have something to do with my wanting summer to linger just as long as it wants

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  1. It takes a perceptive spirit to see the connectedness in our lives. Taken separately, these events don't have the continuity of seeing them in a timeline of sorts. It's exactly because you do ponder life, Lynn, that this is one of your skills.

    Sometimes when you're in the moment, it's hard to stop and appreciate the fun and energy which is occurring. Hope you're taking lots of photos, to console your hubs afterwards.Best wishes for your daughters wedding and her happiness.

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  2. awww that is very sweet, d.g.----you know, i was taking lots of pics, but my camera just died---hopefully i will be getting another one soon :)

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    1. Eek- that would be disaster for me. Hope you do get another one soon, you must have worn that one out.

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  3. yeah i don't know what happened--it looked kinda like what happened to my "good" camera a couple of years ago---robyn and i were passing it and dropped it!---fortunately i believe in addition to their official wedding photographer, we hope to have others catching the moments :)

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  4. After the hustle and bustle, things seem so empty.

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    1. i know, that's what i am hoping to avoid--ya think maybe i can ruth :)

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  5. I think the fireflies,like the birds in Cinderella, are pulling the summer together and along. It has that feeling for me, too.

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    1. that is such a great analogy, joanne, i love it---glad you are feeling it too :)

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  6. Thank you for sharing your musings this morning. I could feel your mood - the melancholy, and also the sweetness. Life is like that - all shades of the emotional palate.

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    1. i am glad i could convey my feelings, you are very right, joy so many shades, thank you :)

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  7. All the absolute best to Robyn and her impending new life. Sending you my heart as you go through each stage of this time.

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    1. awwww i will take that special heart and pass along your well wishes--thanks suze <3

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  8. Many hugs to you, my friend.

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  9. A child getting married does bring mixed emotions. When my son got married, I was went back and forth between tears of happiness and tears of sadness. I knew our relationship would change. Weddings are such important milestones. I know your girl's day will be lovely and all the work will be worth it. There is a bit of grieving, though, when our kids grow up and on and out....
    thinking of you. :0)

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    1. it is certainly ups and downs mare----i am breathing deeply as i write this haha thanks :)

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  10. It's not the thing to wish for time to elapse Lynn. Even in the most harsh environment there are moments to be preserved.
    I remember how quiet the house got when the last of my four daughters left for university, but life takes on different pleasures. The joy we felt when we learned we were to be grandparents for the first time was one magical moment, the joy continued as the other grankids came along.
    I've no regrets about my life up to now, but each year the time goes by so quickly.
    Life goes on and in another decade if I'm still around hopefully I'll get to hold another small bundle of joy....my first great grandchild.

    But not so quickly please !

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    1. i know you are right, it is part of my personality---i don't like to wait for anything am early to everything and ready for everything to end---but i am trying to enjoy the journey more these days----here's hoping to you and me holding those great grandchildren one day :)

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  11. Did you get my e-mail last week Lynn?

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    1. no---i never use my email jp----are you on facebook----if so friend me---sorry i didn't see it :)--i am under lynn weaver proctor

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  12. When my daughters got married, I smiled so much that my face hurt the next day.

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  13. I know that mood. I am not anywhere close to having my kids get married, but I understand the sentimentality--the longing to hang on a bit longer.
    I never want the summer to end. Yet it does. Always. So for me, I work on staying int he moment only. Yes, there is planning. But no more thinking ahead too much for me anymore. I feel a bit happier that way.
    (((Hugs))) to you.

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    1. i am getting a little bit better at staying in the moment or at least recognizing the moment is passing quickly-----good to hear from you susan---i haven't been doing much writing or blogging these days--i am going over to check on yours now---glad you are enjoying your summer---thanks for the hugs--hugging ya back :)

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  14. Such a happy day for her, but can certainly bring out the emotional side in mom. We aren't even close to a wedding with our girls, but just the thought of the oldest moving away to college in 4 years is enough to such the breath out of me. Wishing your daughter the happiest wedding day!

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    1. i know, that breath feeling thing theresa----thanks for the best wishes :)

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  15. It's so easy to get caught up in the crazy-crazy, and forget to savor, eh? Enjoy it, Lynn, and don't forget the cheese along to way.

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    1. haha i shall not forget that cheese--thanks hon :)

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