Monday, July 30, 2012

autumn shadows

good monday morning, i am kinda enjoying a cup of coffee with irish cream in it--but the creamer doesn't have much flavor----i think i will get the cinnamon one again soon-----

i hope you all had a good weekend---i hope ya did something you liked to do and not just work, unless that is what you wanted to do---

yesterday afternoon we went for a ride---i kept feeling kinda restless and content at the same time----it was a beautiful sunny day, but i told frank, the shadows of the sun were more like fall days---

i love fall---i get tired of summer right after the 4th of july ----recently i have remarked how it even feels Christmasy to me some days-----

i tell myself to not rush summer along, to let it linger and caress me-----i think i could do that better at the beach--

but i have always been this way, feeling the seasons before they are here and missing the previous one when the new one truly begins, even if only a little-----

it is coming up on the anniversary of my mother's death------even as my mother lay dying last august, i knew, that this was a beautiful time in our family's life-----it is a gift when a love one passes with their family around and has the time to talk and laugh and regret and cry unashamed---for few are the times we let this happen----

life is full of paradoxes and mysteries and true beauty comes in many forms and experiences--

yesterday i felt the nudging that something should happen, that life had something golden, just ahead of the bend----that all my good days were not over and all of my hopes and dreams were not as finite as i may have once thought in my younger days--

something told me as i saw autumn in the glow of the trees, that my spirit would soar once more, and i might even touch a miracle or two---

or relish the feelings of uncertainty with hope and wonder as never before---

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  1. Very excited for autumn as well :) New adventures on their way!

    Sarah Allen
    (my creative writing blog)

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  2. What a very bitter sweet post Lynn. I hope that your spirit does soar as it deserves.

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    1. yes, i find most of the deepest moments of life are just as you say, bittersweet---thanks for your well wishes rebecca :)

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  3. Every day is a miracle and the only way to truly honor those miracles is to be in the present. The future is unknown, the past is already gone. We have only now, only this breath, in and out.

    It is wonderful that you got to spend the last days of your mother's life with her, sharing. Remember her with laughter.

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    1. each day is surely a gift---yes i wouldn't trade that time for anything---and oh i do remember a lot of my mother with laughter, she was quite a character! thanks bish :)

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  4. After all of the days of the massive heatwave, Fall sounds pretty nice. :)

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    1. doesn't it--although here, the cooler weather takes quite a while--thanks :)

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  5. A sweet post. I'm ready for autumn too. This summer has been a rough one. Autumn always lifts my spirits, and I hope you find an adventure or two comes your way.

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    1. i am sorry your summer hasn't been better--i hope fall will do well for you---thanks so much christine <3

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  6. I LOVE fall as well the way the the landscape changes colour, different scents. Breathtaking! Just like you, I consider it a wonderful gift when the family member passes away with family around. I think he/she rests peacefully. You are in my thoughts and prayers during this time. :)

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    1. the colors are amazing and warming---yes it was a gift--thanks cecilia <3

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  7. Hi Lynn,

    You have shared a lovely post ~ with each new season, there are lots of adventures and dreams to think about.
    So glad that you and your family were able to spend the last days with your Mother. We did the same when my Father passed, and although very sad and hard, was great to share this time.

    Have a great week
    Hugs
    Carolyn

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    1. i am glad you too had that sweet time with your father--thanks so much carolyn :)

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  8. Each season has its own magic as you have written. Still missing my mother, but haven't forgotten her. Wish life had been easier for her, but she still loved every year when she was well. Thoughtful post.

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    1. i know, there is always a longing when we think of our moms --thank you :)

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  9. Lovely post. I love autumn, too. It's my favorite season.

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    1. isn't it brilliant! thanks sherry :)

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  10. What a wonderful feeling! Good for you!

    I'm ready for some cooler weather, for sure.

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  11. I have always dreaded the coming of fall but maybe that's because I'm a teacher. I wonder how I'll feel next summer when I'm retired?

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    1. i think i dreaded it as a child because of school---and you will probably have some residual dread that will pass--thanks susan :)

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  12. Early autumn is a wonderful time of year. It's not too warm, not too cold, the colors are beautiful and it smells delicious. I'm sure you're not the only one who was ready for a seasonal change on July 4th. :)

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    1. you made me smell those fragrances as i read your comment and i can feel how it feels to walk on the crunchy leaves----thanks sarah :)

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  13. That was a pretty post. I love fall. The older I get, the more allergic I am to the fallen leaves. But I still love it. I know it's supposed to feel like the approach to the end of the year, but it feels like beginnings to me. Always has.

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    1. sorry you have to deal with the fall allergies---and it does feel like a beginning--one of those great paradoxes of life, huh--thanks tonja :)

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  14. I also have a habit of living in the upcoming season instead of taking the time to enjoy the current one. I love summer and spend the rest of the year looking forward to it, yet, lately I find myself yearning for the Halloween season to quickly approach.

    Today is my step mother's birthday. I adored her like she was a birth mother. She passed in February, so I feel your pain here as well today.

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    1. oh i am so sorry for your loss, theresa--what a treasure to have that relationship with your "mil"---i feel the same way about both of my daughter-in-laws---and one of them has her birthday today---thanks again theresa :)

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  15. I'm so sorry that you lost your mom. Your mom was fortunate to have had such a wonderful family.
    I also love the colors, and cooler fall temperatures. Julie

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    1. thank you julie, she was very special---i know, i just adore the fall colors, they are so passionate--isn't it ironic how the leaves are the colors they are, because of death---thanks again julie :)

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  16. This is a great post! I am sorry about you losing your mom but it is so nice to hear you relating such a good experience with her and the others in the end.

    I appreciate you sharing your uplifting feelings, it is a breath of fresh air. xo

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    1. yes i am so grateful to have those sweet memories of all my family gathered together in love---thanks for your encouragement sherri :)

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  17. thanks for sharing, quite a lot of what you've said struck a chord.
    I went to visit my mum's grave yesterday- I had some stuff to tell her. I know she isn't there but it was important things she'd wanted to have known so I felt it had to be said in an "official" place. Now how daft is that!
    The nicest thought is that we will always be our mother's daughters.
    xx
    ps- oh, I came over to say thankyou for your lovely comment. Yes, I guess it is an English version of Little House on the Prairie!

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    1. yes it is a comfort to hold our moms so close in our hearts and i know what you mean about the "official" place----your home sounds so peaceful and homey--i just love your blog---thanks :)

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  18. I love Autumn! Though you may as well call the weather we're having right now autumn weather. It's been pouring non-stop with rain and there were massive hailstones! Hope you're having much better weather! :) x

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    1. oh no--i hope your weather changes for the better, soon---we are having a little cooler weather than the last few weeks---we have had some hail the last few months, too--thanks althea :)

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  19. fall is one of my favorite seasons. i love layering, and everything is just so pretty. enjoyed this post, lynn. have a great day!

    jasmine

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    1. i know--i love all the great sweaters and fall colors in the clothes---you too--thanks jasmine :)

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  20. Lovely thoughts on seasonality. I always have a sense of calm when the days start looking like fall.

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    1. i know, exactly--autumn brings a kinda calm!--thanks joy :)

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  21. I hope Autumn brings wonderful opportunities for you...

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  22. Praying that you get your season of dreams and miracles! Your life is indeed not over, it could just be beginning!

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    1. awwww thanks for the kind words and prayers, brownie :)

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  23. I live in Pa..we have 4 seasons....I think I like all of them! next week is the beach for us and that will mean the end of summer...bittersweet.

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    1. we have four here in va. too--and i like all but i would have to say i am over winter the fastest--have a great beach week :)

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  24. I feel exactly the same way about fall, Lynn. It's my favorite time of the year, and I can't hardly wait for cooler days and nights. It's been a long, hot summer.

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    1. it has been very hot here too, much hotter summer than last---thanks patricia :)

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  25. Beautiful post, Lynn. I also like autumn. There's just something about the smell of falling leaves that makes me feel like a kid again. :)

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    1. i know, i think the smells are just about as fantastic as the colors--thanks dana<3

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