Wednesday, August 8, 2012

a heavy heart

i have been avoiding writing this week----

something and someone has been heavy on my heart and mind----i will not share the particulars here---but i may share some of the feelings---

i wanted to keep my blog light, but life isn't always light, so unless i wait it out, i would not be writing for a while---

i have told you before that i believe in miracles--and i believe we are all given a purpose in being on this planet---sometimes that faith gets a little challenged, but stronger--

moms are a unique breed, we bleed not only when our kids are hurting but when others children are hurting as well---

i continue to write this blog, with no idea of what to say--maybe you are thinking, well why don't you just not write---maybe i shouldn't--

one thing i can say, is i have felt the presence of the Holy Spirit, most when in the deepest darkness and despair----i have known the comfort of His standing in front of me, lighting the way---even if i do not see the light, i know He is light, and in Him is no darkness--

i rejoice with those that rejoice, and i am to suffer with those who suffer----i simply want to do more--

sometimes we cannot understand, more times than not, we do not see the reasons, but we trust, that "nothing can separate us from the love that is in Christ Jesus"---

i only really know that the heart is a living breathing organ, capable of joy, peace, and utter pain----

our hope is in His hands and in His time-----my prayer is for in our weakness, we will be strong and in our darkness we will know that the light surrounds us and shines on us and through us---that He is the "author and finisher of our faith"---and when we see what He sees it will be knowledge--so until then we hope--

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  1. We've lived a year of the same. Something so huge taking up all the space in our universe. I don't know what your story is but I will keep you in my prayers.

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    1. oh joyce i am so sorry for whatever you have been dealing with--bless you <3

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  2. I sensed something was pulling at you over the past couple of days. Thanks for reaching out. I believe it always helps.

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    1. it does help to reach out--thanks for being there joy<3

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  3. My dear..I am sorry for what ever it is you are struggling with. I share in your faith and know the Lord is with us and will carry us through it all. I will keep you in my prayers for sure.

    Please know that we will be here whenever you want to post and for whatever reason. xxoo

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  4. I had a feeling something might be going on. I hope that reaching out helped. Just remember, the sun still shines even when it's cloudy! Hugs!

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    1. i am holding onto that truth---and it does help---thanks for the hugs sherry <3

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  5. May your load lift, or become bearable. My best thoughts...

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    1. i just got a little glimmer of that light--thanks for the well wishes joanne <3

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  6. Keep strong and keep writing because your blog is a little spark of brightness. Hope your worries and problems lift soon. Blessings.

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    1. awww thanks so much susan--blessings to you too <3

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  7. Keep that belief in miracles. I believe in them too. Sometimes it's all that gets me through the tough times. And then it's great to look back and be awestruck by miraculous events.

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    1. yes it is a wonder to look back and recognize them---thanks so much karen <3

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  8. Hi Lynn,

    Sorry to read that you are going through a rough patch and really hope that life will be brighter in coming days.
    My thoughts and good wishes go your way.

    Hugs
    Carolyn

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    1. thank you so much for all the good wishes thoughts and hugs, carolyn <3

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  9. Many hugs and prayers. Please e-mail me if you need to talk. Your words were so helpful to me when I was going through my own hard time; I hope somehow I can do the same for you.

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    1. thank you dana--i am glad to know i helped you in even a small way--you are helping me now so much <3

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  10. God is good all.the.time Lynn. I see that you know that by the way you confess His words in the midst of your pain. He is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path. Thank God there is safety in the radius of the light!
    Praying.

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    1. He truly is---thank you for your kind words and prayers brenda <3

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  11. Sometimes we try to take on the woes of the world, and sometimes others cannot see the motivation behind our actions. When reaching out to people you have to speak to them on their level not from an elevated platform.

    Life is incredibly unkind to some who have committed no other crime than be born in the wrong place at the wrong time. It challenges my beliefs. I have shed many more tears on behalf of others than I ever have for myself.

    It is difficult to understand being 'different' to everyone else yet we are all unique. I have never seen anything but positive words from you Lynn and you should take solace from that but weep not for the world, none of us have that many tears.

    I don't know what the problem is but as a species we are resilient even though we sometimes behave like lemmings. I hope things work out.

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    1. your words have deeply touched me jp---i do weep for the world sometimes, but this is much closer--and thanks for the true reminder of how resilient we humans are<3

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  12. Here's hoping your heavy heart becomes lighter real soon, take care.

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  13. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  14. Whatever it is, I hope it gets better soon.

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    1. i am hoping and praying it does--thanks danielle <3

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  15. the hardest thing to deal with is helplessness
    praying always helps! hoping resolution finds you soon.

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    1. it is so hard to know you can't do anything--but prayer is powerful--thanks tara <3

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  16. Sending good thoughts your way and hope things work out.

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    1. i appreciate all of the good thoughts, thanks christine <3

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  17. So sorry to read about your struggle and pain. Only the truly strong can write this openly about their feelings and emotions. I hope this helped you heal your heart a little bit.

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    1. thank you sylvia for your sweet words of comfort<3

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    2. So sorry for your despair but happy that you have your faith to help you through the difficult times.

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    3. thank you siv--this too shall pass<3

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  18. I'm sorry that you're going through such a difficult time. You're such a good person, and I wish you only the best. I'll be sending lots of positive thoughts your way. Julie

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    1. awww thanks julie, you are very sweet and i appreciate all the positive thoughts our family can get<3

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  19. I'm not sure what is weighing on your heart, but your postings always seem to be so inspirational to me. Keeping you in thoughts and prayers.

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  20. oh that is so nice to know!--thanks so much for the good thoughts and prayers<3

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  21. Lynn, sometimes writing what you're feeling helps alot.:)Whatever you are going through, it will come to pass. And miracles, I do believe in them. They happen everyday even when we don't recognise them as such. There's a song that goes.."God will make a way, where there seems to be no way, He works in ways we cannot see".. Don Moen I think. That's one of those songs that lift me up. :)
    Hugs, Lynn

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    1. that is exactly what our family needs--because if we look at the situation as it is, we can become very discouraged, but i have lived it---many times when i could not imagine how things would change or get better, God performed a true miracle--thanks so much cecilia <3

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  22. I'm dealing w/ some heartache too, so I will keep you in prayer as I look for my own peace. Sometimes things don't improve and we just have to get through to the other side. As your other readers, I'm sending love and encouragement. God is still on the throne, and we will see the bigger picture someday.

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    1. i am sorry for your troubles mare---i will keep you in prayer--and you are right, sometimes it takes a long time to see things get better or change--and thanks goodness, He is on the throne <3

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  23. My heart is hurting for you. I will keep you in my prayers. I hope you keep writing, I believe you are helping others while helping yourself. :)

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    1. thank you for caring marie--i plan to write more and it does help <3

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  24. I'll keep you in my thoughts, Lynn. I hope your spirits lift and your heartache is resolved soon.

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    1. thanks patricia, i am feeling a little better today-my extended family is going to need prayers for quite a time <3

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  25. We can't always be happy go lucky bloggers all the time. It's ok to have a period of down and out. That's life. I am sorry you are going through this patch right now, but I too believe in miracles and hope your days get a little lighter soon!

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    1. i am praying that very strongly for a loved one--thank you so much for the nice comment theresa <3

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  26. I believe in miracles too! My thoughts and prayers go out to you and hope things change for the better very soon!

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    1. it is a comfort to believe in them--thanks so much stephen <3

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  27. I hope all goes well for you. Your post illustrates a good sense of faith and trust.


    Lee
    Wrote By Rote

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  28. Lynn, Will keep you my thoughts, I hope this next week will be brighter for you, Laura

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  29. Well here I am late, but still thinking about you. You are in the right place--next to God. You're not running, you're waiting and letting him love on you.

    Nothing ever changes God. He is the strongest of all time. That's where we rest, when we don't understand.

    prayers
    Teresa

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    1. wonderful true words--thanks for the encouragement and prayers teresa <3

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