Monday, November 19, 2012

no lights before it's time

the darkened houses leave me feeling somewhat warm and cozy inside, like i wonder who lives there and what are they doing---i kinda feel like "john-boy"

while the Christmas music plays, i hum it in my head and try to bring back those memories, no they won't come-

not the way i always imagine they will come---so i think to myself----each year holds another promise-
i can fight against it or submit to it's beckoning---i don't

then there is a glimmer--someone has taken the time to adorn their abode with the shiny stuff---it all runs together for me---like a watercolor painting left in the bathroom with the shower on----i like it better that way--

will this season bring the softness of winter or the bitter chill-----is it only in my power or do i have a thing to say about it---

so i will trust to feel it when it arrives and hope to not grow tired before it's time--

and although the shadows are still there and the pain that feels a little like comfort will undoubtedly arrive from event to event-----

i know full well that come january i will regretfully mourn it's passing

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  1. It's the weather, Lynn, it gets to us. Sometimes I want to change the same-old same-old this time of year, but to someone else in the family, that's what they call their tradition.

    What we do, we often do for others, so do a little something for yourself.

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    1. i know---you are so right--we do it for others, that's what the season is all about---and thank you d.g.---happy thanksgiving :)

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  2. My kids want to start their own traditions this year. I think that is great that they want to take this step. It is a time of combining the old with the new traditions! Loved the post and Happy Thanksgiving!

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    1. oh yeah--it's a happy time when some of the holiday traditions are moved on to others haha--thanks sweetie, the same to you and yours :)

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  3. I usually start the Christmas music and the Christmas movies too early and I am sick of them by the time Christmas actually gets here. I am trying to enjoy Thanksgiving first this year!

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    1. i do the same thing---the cooking shows should have started their thanksgiving shows earlier this year, i missed that----hope you have a great thanksgiving day judy :)

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  4. I love this time of year. Well, everything except the cold. The lights, the decorations, music, food, family. It all makes me glow. I am a nut that would love to have this time of year celebrated all year long. People tend to seem happier to me during the holidays, and that makes me happy.

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    1. i do love it too--but it brings for me lots of memories that are bittersweet---hope you have a great thanksgiving :)

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  5. Hi Lynn,

    Yes, Christmas does seem to creep up so quickly especially when they have all the merchandise in the shops so early.
    Have a happy Thanksgiving
    hugs
    Carolyn

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    1. and everything is earlier this year---it has crept up for sure--thanks carolyn :)

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  6. I usually get so stressed out at this time of the year. I decided that this year, I would take one day at a time and just try to stay calm. We'll see how that goes...

    Enjoyed your post!

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    1. that is the best possible way to do it--if only---blessings to you dana :)

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  7. The holidays seem to have come so fast this year. I know, I'm not ready!

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    1. i know--we are getting down some of the Christmas stuff today--last year at thanksgiving time, i had all my Christmas decorations up---happy thanksgiving sherry :)

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  8. If it was up to me, I'd hibernate until it's over. I ONLY do it for family and cross my fingers for survival.

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    1. haha hibernating hmmmm that's an idea---thanks ms. a ;)

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  9. Bonza christmas poem. I really like the following line "Like a water colour painting left in the bathroom with the shower on" that's a very vivid image indeed.

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    1. thanks so much i am so happy you liked my line---that one was special to me too :)

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  10. Beautiful! Your descriptions are spot on!

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    1. awww that's so sweet-- thank you jackie:)

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  11. I like it so much better when it all runs together for me too, Lynn. Thanks for putting my feelings into words so eloquently, as always...

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    1. i'm glad you like it that way also-- thanks meredith for your sweet encouragement:)

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  12. Beautiful piece of writing...descriptive; vivid; with an intensity to it that evokes many emotions that I too carry with me at this time of year.

    Happy Holidays, let it wash over you, like the fresh falling snow on the branches of the might evergreen - you will stand up to what comes your way, and let it wrap you in a cloak of contentment.

    Jenny

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    1. thank you so much jenny-- i'm glad it made you feel-- i love the idea of letting it washing over me-- i'm gonna give that a try-- hope you have a blessed thanksgiving too:)

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  13. I'm really doing my best to be more festive this holiday season after a lot of seasons I wasn't and just wanted the time over with. However, I'm still having trouble seeing people having their Christmas lights up on the outside of their houses when Thanksgiving still hasn't come; wished they would have waited and celebrate one holiday and then move on to Christmas. I hope you and your family, Lynn, have a Happy Thanksgiving!

    betty

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    1. well even though i shared my fleeting feelings about all of this--i am guilty of having all my Christmas stuff up way before now--as a matter of fact, we are dragging it down tonight---i have had one tree up for like 2 weeks or more haha---hope you enjoy your thanksgiving day too betty :)

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  14. I hope this season brings the softness of winter for you.

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  15. This is one of my favorite pieces you've written. I wish you a happy and gentle winter, and may none of us feel too much of that biting chill.

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    1. that means so much to me christine, as i really wanted to say it all in this one piece but knew i couldn't---thanks for the kind wishes and my very best to you and yours<3

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  16. I feel your bittersweet outlook on the season. It is the same for our family. Hope the holiday is kind to you.

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    1. you know, i have always felt that bittersweet feeling at Christmas time---i guess it wouldn't be the same without it----and the same sweet wish for you susan :)

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  17. This was beautifully written. The holidays do sneak up on us, and they bring out a whirlwind of emotions. Hope you have a happy Thanksgiving!
    Julie

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    1. they really do bring out all the stuff! thanks so much julie, you too :)

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  18. i need to read this all cozy by a fire with a cup of cocoa! sweetness!

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    1. haha i was drinking sf cocoa as i rode and had this inspiration--thanks tara :)

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  19. I like the image of the watercolor painting left in the bathroom.

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  20. That was so poetic, Lynn. Your post left me with a whole cornucopia of feelings. I know holidays are hard when you're missing loved ones, too. (((hugs))) to you.

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    1. thank you for feeling it susan---yes the holidays are hard in lots of ways, but i do feel joy too----hugging ya tight back<3

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  21. I am sending you warm thoughts and wishes for a peaceful Thanksgiving.

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    1. thanks so much and good wishes are coming your way too<3

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  22. Yes, I can never quite resist the spirit of Christmas although the commercialism is horrible. I hope all will go well for you in 2013.

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    1. it has gotten out of hand! thanks jenny the same wishes for you:)

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