the subject or word has not come easily although as you read, you may wonder why it didn't-
my first three beautiful girls did not dance, i could always see them dancing and i know in my heart i will see them dancing in heaven one day--but how my heart aches at the thought of them here, spinning around in their tutus and tights--
my last child a girl, dances--not only does she dance, but she is amazing--
i am sure with the right amount of training and lots of money, she could have made it in ballet---it's funny she has a natural grace and beauty for ballet, but no love for it, at least not anymore --
i don't know if any of you watch "dance moms"---in my experience it has not been too much like the show--but the undertones are certainly there--
sadly or maybe not, we were not able to keep up with the cost of dance--
my daughter robyn has been taking ballroom for the last couple of years, where she works for her lessons--
robyn occasionally dances at our "baptist" church--
when she is all done with dancing one day, i know i will be a little sad--that i will always remember her twirls and her leaps--and her saying, "hey mom watch this, how does that look"---
she tells me she dances for her sisters too- that she sees ashley, eden and mary, when see dances----i see them too and it explains why, at times while watching her dance, i feel some little souls around me whispering, "see mama, we can dance"--
This post was so touching it gave me goosebumps and even a tiny tear in my eye. It was so beautifully written! I'm so glad I'm following you so that I can read your sweet posts each morning :)
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awwww thank you so much nikki---i struggled with this one--it is always hard for me to open up about my children--your encouragement was greatly needed:)
Deletei am sorry i wasn't able to put up a video--my daughter is going to help me with this later :)
ReplyDeleteI'll have to try to remember to come back to check out the video, but I too was touched by your words written; having just started to follow your blog, I don't know much about you or your family so I look forward to getting to know you more.
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thanks corgi---and again i am sorry i wasn't able to simply share the dance video--hopefully we will adjust my blog options soon!
ReplyDeleteNice!
ReplyDeleteVery nice dancing! I enjoyed it.
ReplyDeletethanks for reading!
DeleteLynn, this is so beautiful. I could hear the sadness in your voice. Robyn is such an amazing dancer, and every time I've seen her, she has stood out from everyone-of course, I could be a little biased! :-)
ReplyDeletethank you so much adie, what you have said means so much--it is very hard for me to share about the kids---and even though you may be biased, it still is true haha <3
ReplyDeleteoh, your sadness shines through your post...I felt it with you. Your daughter's a little ballerina! So elegant and assured (and lovely music)
ReplyDeletethank you so much susan :)
DeleteWhat wonderful memories of your daughters.
ReplyDeletethank you miranda :)
Deletethanks miranda :)
DeleteI'm sorry to hear about the loss of your children, but what a lovely sentiment. :) Thanks for sharing this post.
ReplyDeletethank you shannon <3
ReplyDeleteI detected a bit of melancholy in your post, it was very poignant.
ReplyDeleteIt's a shame that sometimes cost becomes such a deterrent.
My spouse, the Education Tipster, loves dance and studied it as far as she could.
I don't know about the dance show you mentioned but we enjoy Dancing with the stars. There was a great dance competion show called Americas best dance crew which was fabulous. It was groups of people who street danced but they elevated it to an art. It disappeared though. We miss it.
Please take care of yourself.
thank you for your beautiful comment anthony--fortunately my daughter has been able to keep up with much of her dancing, but not the competition dancing, which i think had pretty much run it's usefulness anyway--i remember hearing about the dance crew show---we like "dwts" and "so you think you can dance"--does your spouse still work in dance at all---my daughter i wrote about has been writing a story on her blog "by ivy nor"--the story is titled "chasse secrets"---way before the new dance shows aired---sorry for the long comment haha!
ReplyDeleteLove your post. I wish I could dance. I remember my mom taking me to see The Nutcracker gosh many years ago and I had wished I could dance like that, but was given the gift of left feet I guess. Thanks for sharing and can't wait to read your other topics of April
ReplyDeletedo you know we have never been to see the nutcracker!! thanks for reading and the encouraging words!
DeleteI admire anyone who can dance. I have no grace at all, so it always impresses me when others do. Ballet and ballroom are both wonderful forms.
ReplyDeletei do too--although i choreograph i no longer dance--thanks for commenting julie!
DeleteAbsolutely beautiful, profoundly moving - the video and your reflections.
ReplyDeleteso sweet of you to say tom--it means so much and thanks for the nice comment to robyn--thanks for reading!
ReplyDeleteI dance very rarely and poorly. When my wife and I go to a function that includes dancing, I'll take her out on the dance floor a few times because she likes to dance. She laughs at me because I tend to be intensely focused on counting the beat - but that's the only way this mennonite lad can dance.
ReplyDeleteLovely post, I'm sure all your girls are dancing.
ReplyDeletethanks paula and i think you are right :)
Deletehaha that's cute--you do what ya gotta do---love it!
ReplyDeleteI've actually seen Dance Moms and cringe whenever I hear the mothers "prodding" their daughters or the dance coach. But I love the girls!!!!
ReplyDeleteyes i know what you mean!
ReplyDeleteI love watching kids dance. So precious.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness.... I don't know whether to laugh or cry... it is so lovely. My heart aches for you, but I admire the courage and strength that you must have. How fortunate that your daughter is so insightful and caring!
ReplyDeletePatricia, Sugar & Spice & All Things ? Nice
Beautiful post Lynn, and I am so sorry for you loss..
ReplyDeleteI wish I could dance. Unfortunately I have about as much rhythm as a pin ball machine.
ReplyDeleteYour daughter is fab in the video! You must be very proud of her. Beautiful post. :-)
haha i bet you're not that bad! thanks for watching her video--i wish i could have posted several--but we are going to have to work on my blog options--:)
DeleteVery sweet, but sad. I always wanted to dance as a kid, but we couldn't afford it. I'm struggling with that decision for my own daughter right now.
ReplyDeleteShannon at The Warrior Muse, co-host of the 2012 #atozchallenge! Twitter: @AprilA2Z
yes it can be very expensive---i look back and don't know how we ever did it as long as we did--good luck with your daughter!
Deletethank you patricia--yes i have been blessed in so many ways with all of my children---you are very kind--thanks for reading :)
ReplyDeletethank you so much patricia :)
ReplyDeleteThat turned out as such a lovely tribute to your daughters. Nice D. :))
ReplyDeletethanks for saying so sandra :)
DeleteThat was a beautiful post.
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by my D post.
thanks so much annalisa--you have a beautiful name!
DeleteWow...what a touching, beautiful, and emotional post. Thank you for sharing something so personal and wonderful. Keep it up!
ReplyDeletethanks mel for the encouragement :)
DeleteBeautiful post, thanks for sharing.
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thanks for reading :)
DeleteVery touching tale of Motherly angst and pride, at least you have some wonderful memories, take care.
ReplyDeletei do--thanks rch :)
ReplyDeleteHi, Lynn! Found you after you found me on the A to Z, and I'm so glad I did! What a beautiful post! At least you know to treasure the dancing years while you're in them - so many don't till they're past. You've hidden them in your heart, forever. Loved it.
ReplyDeletethank you so much elaine---and you are right--sometimes we miss the things that are the closest :)
ReplyDeleteDance is all about expression--love your daughter dancing!
ReplyDeleteLook forward to your challenge run…
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thanks so much for reading and watching!
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