Honestly I’m getting kinda lazy- I didn’t even take the time to research this- freshly- I have before
Hey we all understand when we get to this letter huh
The x in Xmas is sometimes explained as a symbol of the cross
I’m okay with that - but I get why people are upset by it - omitting Christ-
Now I’m getting kinda stuck- I might just stop here and go do a little more research - naw - wish I had picked X-ray or what’s the other one?
See this letter even has me using question marks
But seriously if someone wants to use Xmas instead of Christmas- I’m not going to get too upset- unless I do find out it means something I had not realized
Hey I’ve warned y’all I’m not a serious writer- there’s too much work in that-
And dare I admit I’m always confused about the xo thing- You know like which is the hug and which is the kiss
I speak of Frank’s and my wedding- all the way back in the bicentennial year
I thought it might be fun to try and see if this post would allow me to think back on that amazing day and maybe take an honest although lighthearted look back
Of course being in August it was hot- I actually am saying that more of knowledge but with no real remembrance of being too hot or uncomfortable- you know I am assuming the church had ac at the time
I wish I had recorded the music - as I didn’t hear much of the beforehand piano- or was it the organ- music
My sister and my niece- who was under 2 - had taken a morning to meet with the lady who would play
I don’t think I can recall each one but here are a few
“What are you doing the rest of your life”- this one had gained popularity because of it being the theme song of a couple on a famous soap opera- I think it was Roger and Peggy but I’m not sure of the show
“Feelings”- it was a big hit at that time
“ the Shadow of your Smile”
There were quite a few others
My brother in law Lewis sang
I did record the ceremony but I’m not sure if it broke- but I can’t find it
I remember how my cake had fresh flowers on the top but they were the wrong color or one was- I don’t know how they got it mixed up as the same florist did my other flowers - I had picked pink and green but the cake had pink and blue
I called them and got a big discount!
I remember the church was full
As I write this I’m trying hard to not just jot down what I know but to let memories come back
Funny thing that comes back- one of our guests- she had been really Frank’s friend
Anyway she had cut off her long hair- I said to her “you cut your hair”- to which she exclaimed- “ no I had my neck stretched “ - as you can see it made an impression on me!
All in all I know I was extremely happy to be Mrs Frank Proctor
When I mostly think of value- I equate it with the value or usefulness of something
It is often said that we will value what is important to us
But if we don’t value it does it change the level of value
Is value similar to appreciation - does it have to always pertain to worthiness
If I value something and you don’t- does that make one of us wrong
Value is extremely subjective - leading to an enormous range of importance
If I recognize something’s value do I automatically respond to it- does my labeling it’s value raise it’s value- does everything have value- I pray each person has value to at least one person
Remember how I’ve shared the relatively few strong memories I have of actual events and days of my childhood
Well I may have written of this particular one before- so excuse me if I have
I think this day must have begun my fascination with house trailers
My mother and as I recall- my sister Martha and my brother Bland and myself were going to retrieve a friend’s belongings from her tiny trailer where she had been living- alone and lonely- she was our church choir leader- she had become very close to our family and was coming to live with us for the time being
It was the middle of summer- there was no ac and only the minimal shade from the aluminum awning in the tiny trailer
But I sat on the small built in hard as a rock sofa- peering out the window - it pretty much took up the whole end of the trailer- I could see it all- people washing their cars- children riding bikes - women hanging out their wet clothes
The mini stove- the cozy feeling- I could live there- I remember thinking and wishing
True as I recall now I may have written about this woman before- and I became to dislike her and she me
But that day I did like her and had so much excitement for what I thought would be a lark
I can still feel the dry heat in that almost airless small home- and the awe of it all- hence started my romanticizing love of the house trailer
As I take another look back at that mesmerizing day—I can’t help but wonder at the months ahead - that lead to such unhappiness- and how I’m glad I was able to be blissfully unaware of the strained at best feelings that would follow