honoring my dad and mom

our old church had a luncheon today to honor all the work my father has done and is doing through these, i think 60 or so years--they also recognized my mom for all her years singing in the choir-

it brought back a lot of memories - as people talked about funny things and touching things they remembered about my parents-
this was the first time we have been back to our church , since we started looking for a different church--
i didn't feel funny at all , in fact i almost made me feel like i should go back, back to where i'm welcome and wanted--yeah just visiting makes you forget all the reasons ya left-- i'm glad frank and i both feel healed - healed of the wrongs we felt were done to us-

but i don't think we will go back- not unless God reveals that plan to us-

hearing all the nice things people said about my parents. made me very proud of them, not just as my parents- but as individuals, with lives and friends all of their own-

it's easy to think of your parents as people whose only life, is all about their kids-

and partly today was about that- but mom and dad have so many people who love and respect them- it is not everyone who will have a day where they are honored in this way- it was very special to them both-

mother even sang a song with the preacher- one he said was the first duet he sang at our church and it was with my mother- it was "in the garden"-

robyn was a little sad as we left the church today-she said she wished she had known her grandparents when they were younger-

robyn also was very emotional- one of her sunday school teachers , told her that the reason we have not found a church yet, is because we belong there--robyn doesn't want to go back there, but she loves so many people there, as we do-

i hope my fater and mother will remember this day fondly -

carter, mary and t

i find myself here at the computer starting to write about carter -mary - and t's birthdays-carter and mary's have already been- t's is today--i kinda wish i had not started writing on the kids and grand-kids bdays--

carter mary and t are in heaven now, so it's not like the happiest thing to write about for me-

i really am not writing this for anyone to read- so why post it here- i feel bad that i would leave them out- i have already written about carter on his death date-

as of this day i will not hold myself to any promise to write about them on special days- because sometimes i just can't-

i don't want to talk here, about what they were like- it seems to trivialize their existence -

it is one thing to talk about them but to write about them--i just don't have the words that i think would be good enough-

i loved them and of course i miss them- they for sure changed my life --a part of me still wonders if they were real angels-i hope and believe i will see them again one day-

snow daze and baby news

hey you guys-well how is everyone in richmond va., liking our unusual amounts of snow- i know i hate it--although last weekend was kinda neat- frank was off from both jobs so we had some extra time together, which was nice--we watched some movies, caught up on some reading and i got some little things around the house taken care of-so that part was great- but i am really ready for spring-

we found out what the new grand-baby was-----a girl- robyn and i watched the kids while dustin and adie went to the doctor for the ultra-sound - it was so funny- all the kids wanted a boy- so when they texted us the pic and that it was a girl, there was a lot of groaning from the kids- robyn and i were excited either way- the kids were quickly over it and ready to welcome a new sis into the family-

remember that old house i told you about last week--we got to go in it- we are not going to try to buy it , but it was really interesting to see it--it needs sooooo much work- it's a good deal for people with money to buy it and flip it- but not us- sorta feeling like that old dream has died once more--you know if you have that dream or any other dream- go for it when you're younger- unless you are the kind of person who likes to work on houses and is retired-

we are still thinking and praying about starting a church- frank more than i am--he's has been researching how to start a church and lots of other stuff pertaining to that--

i don't really have any other news to tell at this time - just thought i would say hello,hello-

i hope all get through this winter with not too much "discontent"--

houses and churches and babies

hey-hope all r doing well--sorry sometimes my fb writing comes through--well remember i was telling y'all last time about getting bitten by the old house bug--we went riding around some yesterday and saw this really neat house--looks like it needs some work,but so so cool -- agent never has called us back though--probably wouldn't do it but would have liked to gone in to see it--maybe they will call back and we can see it next week-- robyn just loved it-- she is so funny about how she likes all the old stuff even more than i do--

church thing isn't going so well we just don't feel like we have found any place that we are suppose to be--just between you and me i have been at the point , that if some of my friends from my old church had tried to get me to come back - i just might have done it--frank and robyn say no ,no that, that is not the answer--we even started saying again how maybe we could start a church ourselves--yesterday morning it sounded good --like God might be telling us to--but today the thought of it makes me sick -you know what i mean or do you--i have never thought of myself as a pastor's wife and really don't want to be--but i know God has given us talents, i feel we are wasting --i still wonder what is church suppose to be anyway-- i mean the new testament church was a group of fellow believers that pooled all their stuff together and worshiped God --as i understand it , it was not for unbelievers like today--you evangelized outside of the church--not that i have any problem with unbelievers attending church-- it just seems like sometimes we are all just there creating programs and entertaining one another- i sure don't claim to have the answers but something about the organized church of today just doesn't seem right to me--

yesterday morning we listened to a young minister on tv saying that if you didn't want to go to church- if it was a burden to you, then you may not be saved-- it kinda of scared me for a minute, cause i have to admit - i don't want to go , most of the time--then again the Bible says that true religion is to visit those in prison and to take care of the widows and orphans--i have struggled with this for so many years--

when we had our handicapped children--we (for more than one reason) stopped going to church regularly--but every weekend we would go with all the kids and volunteer at an institution--a place we still visit--most of those people have NO visitors at all--so many timed i have and continue to believe-- if you don't have much time then you better make the most of the time you have--Jesus said He came to serve and to not be served-

then on the other side of that i do believe that Christians need one another for support, and would love to find that and give it -

sorry to go on and on -- next subject- we will find out what kind of grand baby we are having wednesday--so i will let ya know----

catch-up

wow it has been so long since i have written- just busy with all the Christmas stuff etc.--hope everyone had a great Christmas-

-we did get to do most of the things we had wanted to do this season-- we took our day trip downtown in the "slip"- we shopped a lot---- we really missed 2 of our grand-children's school things cause of 2 broken cars-- all fixed now--but got to see all the grand-kids and even baked a couple of times with some of them!--we also got to see santa with 2 of the grandkids! my side of the family thing, the thing my parents do with the barbecue from" perrin's" and all, got postponed because of the snow , but we did it at my house 2 days after Christmas- so all was well---


let's see what is new since i have written--our computer crashed and colin spent a week fixing it- thank you colin!--adrienne has a publisher reading her book, they requested more chapters- so we are waiting------she and dustin also had some great news---- they are expecting a baby in spring #5!!!

kelli's sister is getting married in june--

dustin has a california work trip coming up--his store is almost finished with the remodel--sorry this is so fragmented - i'm just telling ya stuff as i think of it-- if i had taken the time to plan anything i was going to write - i probably wouldn't have written today, or maybe ever!--- remember i warned ya how i write--refer back to my first post!

we are busy with robyn's dance and first competition coming up in d.c.-- should be fun -- and then 2 more over the next 2 months-

frank is still working 2 jobs- keep praying that will change- but for now he endures:)

my mom is doing about the same- we had dinner with them last night and stayed with her ,while daddy went to a church meeting-- he has resigned as chairman of the deacons--he still teaches and is a church trustee , still moderator of business meetings and more i can't remember- so he is still doing stuff he enjoys- am glad-

we are still visiting churches- it has been hard- we just haven't found our place yet- God knows our hearts, that we are willing to go wherever He sends us - so we are trying to listen and follow-

i was surprised that i hardly missed doing the children's Christmas play this year- one of my friends took it over - i had mixed emotions about her doing that - but i know that was selfish- just being human ya know, like i was kinda hoping they would not have the play this year-- and all be saying-- boy we sure miss lynn- she was soooo talented- just goes to show ya- everyone is replaceable in jobs- once you're gone, people move on pretty fast-----oh well, i digress--

ya know something funny--well years ago-- like 15 or so every weekend just about -- we took some of our time to ride around, with the dream of finding a neat old house-- we almost bought a couple of them- but always chickened out at the last minute---well when we finally gave that dream up, we were glad we had and decided that the Lord had saved us from ourselves(which He had)------well now that old bug is biting us again! i don't know if we will ever do it but it is kinda neat to think about it and maybe---when all the dance stuff is over---go looking again-

well i can't think of anything else right now- hope i haven't left out anything important--just wanted to say hi again and get my feet wet, writing again--hope you will keep checking-

reagan- our first grand-daughter

6 years ago today our first grand-daughter was born--

i remember when little reagan was born, her 2 older brothers were very sick - they even had to go to adrienne's mom and dad's to stay - so the baby wouldn't get sick--my son and adrienne were sick also--my son "t" had also been in the hospital just a few weeks before reagan arrived--yeah alot of sickness was going aroun

frank and i and our other kids at home went over to dustin's and adrienne's apartment and put up a christmas tree for them- we got to see reagan the night she came home from the hospital-she was a beautiful baby and is an even prettier young lady--she knows some of how special she is-- reagan loves to play bride--one day my daughter-in-law told me , she had over heard reagan playing bride --it was the end of the wedding ceremony --reagan playing all the parts, repeated the pastor's last words,"and now you may kiss the prize--she is <3

brennen's birthday

tomorrow will be my oldest grandchild's 11th birthday- yeah i was a very young grand-mother (haha)

he is such a neat kid- he's very very smart and very very very sweet-
he is very artistic and musical- much like both of his parents-

i remember the night after he was born , we went to the hospital to see him again and then went to look at Christmas lights- it was so magical- grand-kids are something else- i recommend them to everyone-

i hope he has a special day and new year of his young life- i hope he stays as eager to learn and innocent to the harder things of life as long as he can-- happy happy birthday first grandchild-we love ya <3